I MISS U

This Isn't wad i wan

2010-03-12T04:41:00.001-08:00

After being dead 4 so long , i decided to revive my blog if possible . I have been rather busy through these days ... Everyday it is lyke work non stop n i dun find time to blog at home ... Sianz but only tink i can say is tad i very disappointed wid my results dun wan tok bout it .... Afterall , it sucks ..

Now for the highlight of 2dae , is sth happen wich i really did not wan to tok bout it .. I was so damn angry dun noe its my fault or not . I managed to achieve it but it turns to be a false hope.. A highly expected tink turns out to be a failure .. Has my planning failed ? Coz tad was nt wad i wan .. I wan sth else .. BUt afterall , mybe it proves sth wich is not supposed to be .. I JUZ CANT STOP TINKING TAD . IT MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL . Is tere anytink i can do ???

This is Me !

2009-10-29T07:28:00.000-07:00

Ok! I tell u truth is tad i am very happy or rather excited bout dis weekend coz going to watch MJ ... Hooray ! Cant wait 4 it . I am hoping for a show of a lifetime coz it is MJ . A lot of people said it is beyond the world sth only legends would be able to do So excited . Dun noe wad to say .. But , Tere is sth i wanna say which is i am very satisfied wid my results nw . I actually did not hope to have very good results but it met my expectations which is sth tad i would lyke to sahre . As for u , I really have nth to say . Wadeva i said seems to have no effect so i mybe juz not tok bout u for dis post bah . Pai Seh ! cheee!

NO!

2009-10-10T03:33:00.001-07:00

Alrite? wad should i say.. Maybe talk bout exams .. Nah Or outing .. SIanz .. I noe . Wad 2 say . A year has passed already and going up to upper sec next year . Long pants ... Sucks DUn noe feel excited or sad . Feel tad times passes very fast .. HAI! But , sth tad i am not sure about. I not sure about if i should had ..... Dis sth tad i cannot say too personal le . But , i really very tired leh . Exams juz over and i felt my whole body energy drained for that .. THinking of u helps a little bit but think of the reponse that we had against each other sunk my heart .

I told HongXing tad going together when in exams does not really affect the studies if one can noe how to strike a balance between each other . Still , Ok And its becoz of u tad lasted u through the exams . U hav become my moral support through the exams . Thxs ! 4 everytink ..

Ps: Love you still

25th September 2009

2009-09-25T08:30:00.000-07:00

Tiring ..

Apologize 4 nt updating e blog coz very busy studying then no time... OK? Erm , Writer's Block yah.. OK , I got it .. Tell u , i am damn freaking tired sia .. Life is so boring but wad to do ? Juz sit tere complaint .. I learnt something and tad is attitude of life . Tad day very touching then touched me so ATTITUDE!. Everyday, is lyke history , science . But , I wan to confess maybe its not so boring lah coz got some to perk me up lyke Dilon , Jeremy .. and others Yes.

Also , one person tad i would not forget is u . Even though , i act lyke not talking to u is very fine nut , i really want to do so but i juz do not have e courage to talk to u . And , wad can we talk ? " how school? OR how life? Its lyke we meet in school everyday and i dun think it might help us having to topic to say .. Ok , I confessed i am scared of u .. Ur everyword seems to had a great effect on me.

Tell u e truth , I realized i would still think of those days and realized i am crying at times .. Hmm maybe not crying but tears bah .. I really miss u like i have said .. NO matter how long u would want me to wait , I would .. Coz i love u and everytime i said these three , i would not feel shy coz it meant for u .. Though u might have rejected me , but i will still be tere 4 u as long u need me . I will always be at ur call OK?

PS: Miss AND love u .....

4 Sept 2009

2009-09-04T06:58:00.000-07:00

Truly...

U may c me all the time to be so happy but who has really seen the fragile side of me .. I guess not everybody right. Yes, I bet i do not need to say anything , u would be able to understand wad i am talking bout .. Yes , i once promise u tad i would wait , So i will. But , the exams in schools has truly torn me apart .. As u can c , I have cut down on the timing 4 blogging . This is because i had to fork out more time 4 studies .. And i must say tad handling both sides is not easy . It will make you very shattered .. If teres a day tad i had to choose between these 2 , i would gladly accept my studies .. Alright?

And , My sirs told me lot of things which i agreed a lot ... Tis is tad since we are alrdy sec 2s and moving on to sec 3s , A lot of things must change .. Especially , Thinking. We must be rational and think more and cannot be as childish as sec 2s and sec 1s .. We must behave lyke a young adult ... Yes this is true!

But , tere something tad i want to say . This is especially dedicated to those who are in difficulties in life .. Dun give up on wadeva u gonna do Coz u might juz do well in the end .. Perseverance is often the key to success . IF u wan to be a loyal fren , juz keep ur fren secret all the way ,. If u wish to say , Then juz say it out to the person u think he or she might needs to noe . And one more tink is tad enjoy the sweets day .. If u wish to say , Juz say it loud . dn have to consider. But my advice to u is tad its better to hide than to say coz u might get hurt momentarily ..

2009-08-29T21:51:00.000-07:00

Sianz.....

Ytd, went to Grandma hse then got e offerings for the seventh month can be seen tere .. After tad, went into room to watch resident evil .... THis was ages ago show .. Then , asked my cousin to helped me upload songs to my blog .. But , wad was interesting is that i went with my bro to his fren house to watch soccer .. it was tense as we manchester united fans had to face arsenal .. But , we won .. So , we stayed up to watch till 2 plus then went home . Shiok Sia ... but tiring ..

29th August 2009

2009-08-29T01:26:00.000-07:00

I am confused.....

Actually, i am happy tad we have cleared up the understanding between us .. Now, The truth is tad we had a conversation tad day and i explained to her ..... I am so happy .. Yea! But , i wan to clarify sth tad i dun noe wad r u thinking ..? I hope to understand u but i am juz so confused tad wad r u doing nowadays ? Seriously , In dis post .. No idea .. Hai ! Sad .. But , I juz somehow feel tad u are drifing away from me though we are frens .. Yesterday , we were like standing on the same island but now we are like planets ... We seem had no topic to talk about or maybe i should say tat it was me who was afraid to ask her about daily life .. But , tad does not stop me from giving up .. I will still try till the day u really accepted someone ...

PS : I LOVE YOU

2009-08-21T06:09:00.000-07:00

A wonderful ex but a funny fren of mine

U might tink why did i said so ... TO me the answer is those who are in those sweet days before or hav a stead before, u would have noe wad i am talking bout .... alrite? If i am not wrong , i think i have juz cleared up d misunderstanding between us .. TO me , dis is sometink joyous ... I have never felt so clear before in my heart ; so bare juz lyke everytink has been lifted off my heavy heart . I bet u do not noe wad is means to have a heavy heart ... I am just over the moon tad i am given the chance to explain everytink ... For dis to me done , i would lyke thank Qiqi for her relentless ADVICES but not to forget those who are around me who told me wad to do ...

Me: mesmerised by the eyes
stunned by her radiant smile
happy to be cleared
scared of her reluntance glance
terrified by her staring
electric shocked by her attitude (good)

I guess tere are so much tinks u could not possibly finish writing ... Characteristics , Behaviour

XXXL
Ignorant U might see to things
Noisy as u can be
Yelling all the times "Wad" ur famous
Unique in ur character
Nevertheless , Lols are ur favourites

Hey Pal , Dis is for u ..... For more information , check up the blog if u are interested. And Btw, do u need any introduction to start afresh as frens ? Hahaha

8 August 09

2009-08-08T05:23:00.000-07:00

Wad is rite n wad is wrong?

TO me , tere are tinks tad i ned to clarify. Wad i did 4 e past 8 months was ostentious stupidity . I can say tat i woke up from dis terrible dream if mine into the real reality . At dis moment , if u ask me wad i want , i would say tad its mine mistake 4 me to cling onto u . I realised i am just a jerk who does not appreciate wells . But, i would say a bastard would be more accurate in a sense . Wad i am a now is no diferent from the other guys out tere..... But , all i am asking 4 is the chance . Even i possess the slightest chance , I WOULD WAIT. No matter how long its gonna take . BUt, if its meant to be 4 us not to be in relationship , I will act as the guardian angel of ur life to protect u and safeguard u ...

Even in the future a day tad u really accepted someone request , I will not badmouth u anymore or rather i would give the best wishings to the lucky man if ur life .. Last , i nd to say tat i was not hating u but i wad juz to ashamed to c u... My heart would always lie for u .. i noe u would be angry but dis is wad i hav 4 u .. and Never CHANGE .....

PS: I LOVE YOU

30th july 2009

2009-07-30T08:41:00.000-07:00

Wat is reality ?

If u ask me dis question , i can only said tat i used to live in lala land but now its different ....... nowadays given by e current situation , I am in life full of miseries and lies . But , Wad is real wad is fake ? I dun noe how to ask dis question . Hmmm ... Mybe its too profound for me ... Sometimes , u ever wondered wad is BGR ? i tell u tat dis is an terrible experience for me . I wasted the sweet days .. I am juz too disappointed . ALthough i may have a bad one , i GARETH say dis once and for all i am nt going to give up . NO ! I cn tell u she e best girl i have ever met . Though u might have think tat she is juz ok but let me tell u something ! She has given me a feeling tat i hav never ever encounter ......

I dun care if u r cing dis but i gonna tell u tat i am not giving up . I <3 u since e day i began to like u . Honestly , wad i am hoping is for another chance to repent ..... I am gonna wait 4 tat day 2 arrive no matter how long its gonna take ...

ALWAYS BE MY BABY.....

PS : I LOVE YOU

15 July 2009

2009-07-15T03:23:00.000-07:00

Here its again ! Its time for Gareth to report e daily happenings about the hollywood star , Ming Chuan life . Recently, school life began again . He said to me that he had been busy in the holidays as he was busy making his new film : DOCUMENTARY FILM about his life ........

HE also said tat it was tiring 4 him to been unsucessful in relationships ...... But he also said that though he might have failed in relationships , he would lyke 2 try better in his studies ... And also he said he was unsure of his feelings tat wether he should continue or to being accepted ... He said tat it was confusing 4 him so he decided to focus on his studies .... From wad he said to me , I can say tat he was really tired and lonely.... He felt tat the world had collapsed on him n he felt as if she broke up wid him , he was all alone now in the cold . He did not noe wad to do but continue to resist aganist the cold ....... He felt as if no one cared him but he was still glad tat he had frens lyke jeremy and dilon etc .... He thanks them a lot for their support ...

Once again , its gareth repoting live about Ming Chuan life ... Tune in next time 4 more news bout Ming Chuan life .........

20th May 2009

2009-05-20T04:41:00.000-07:00

Soorie . I tink it took me long enough to update my blog . It's news reporter Gareth reporting to u live about The HOLLYWOOD star, Ming Chuan life . Recently , I must say tat his life must be very great . Having lots of frens surrounded by him, he said he felt very happy. On Behalf of him , i thank u guys being here with him. But , i heard from him tat he is even feeling much btr nowdays following his breakdown in relationships problem . Thxs Everybody , especially u who has gve me great help thoroughout dis days . I have nth to say juz full of gratitude in my stomach . I juz do not noe how to express out .

He also said tat he would give up the whole forest 4 tat tree. He also said tat all the best for his ex , Xinyun . he said he had no intention of saying her name . But , He juz feels too blushed to see her . Tat Day at 2B was not intentional . I am feeling very soory 4 wat i have done . Plz forgive me and let us start afresh as frens . Alrite?

I dun noe if u would be seeing dis msg but i juz wanted to post it in my blog and public and tat he was unable to say dis to her. This is all 4 u , Xinyun . Hope u would forgive me !

Dis is Gareth reporting live about Ming Chuan life ..... Be here nxt time to hear more heartouts from Ming Chuan..... Again , Cheers to everyone for exams results.....

16th April 2009

2009-04-16T02:57:00.000-07:00

I hate project work le ....... This report and presentation is driving me insane..... Months of hardwork is going to be presented tomorrow . So curious wat mr soh would say bout our presentation . Juz feeling very nervous and excitied coz as tomorroe is going to be e big day and also coz of our months of hard work is going yo be paid off and everytink will end after e presentation tomorroe. Anyway , to all e groups , gd luck bah . I wish you gus can all do well .

Allow me to change my subject bah . COz after days of consideration, i dun noe if should give up or not . I juz cannot stop tinking bout her . Hers ....... everytink it juz devestating . To her , it might meant nothing but to me it almost 12 months of luv 4 her . Its not so easy to forget her . When i talked bout dis , i will start feeling sentimental . I juz dun noe y but kept on thinking of her . Anyone can tell me wat to do ????? BUt, I have decided not to give up juz yet . I will still persist for her . The HEAT is on!

15th Feb 2009

2009-02-14T23:39:00.000-08:00

Its has been a new year and everytink is new 2 me like having met frens that i nvr had before .But , i noe that sth that have nvr change. SHe is still one lyke. Though i may hav break up with her but my heart still lies 4 her . I will wait !

28th October 2008

2008-10-27T23:32:00.000-07:00

What am i suppose 2 do now ? leaving 2c going 2 2a is a major decision 2 make in my life. I can say i am in dilemma . I could nt bear 2 leave my frens bac in 2c and going 2 2a. Can someone help me? PLs ! Though i hav frens encouraging me 2 go 2a , i still cnt bear 2 leave them behind seh . 2a sucks lah . I dunno why i am feeling lyke tis but i juz wanna let u noe tat i am nt going 2 leave u guys behind . e reason i am in such misery is becoz she is going 2 2a next year and i dunno if i should go tere accompany her or stay . Can anyone help me ?

3th October 2008

2008-10-02T05:43:00.000-07:00

i dUn noe wat she's tinking leh . i m so confused now and i dun noe wat 2 do . i can say tat i am in e midst of nowhere, heading 2 no direction leh. HAIX!!

16th Sept 2008

2008-09-16T07:51:00.000-07:00

2dae, i found out sth from her. I was quite shocked at tat time but i was get over 2 get over it. I would not blame him for having a torch 4 ..........But, wat i heard from him is tat he was jus joking , But , e way he say is lyke serious . Then , Still another 2. Haiii! nvm! I believe tat it is not so .....................................

20th August 2008

2008-08-20T03:35:00.000-07:00

A few days ago, i had some tests lyke Lit, Chi n Maths i tink. It was quite shag but i managed 2 overcum it . l also did something . i sent a message n she i she is touched . i was so glad n wherever i see her , i would say somethink 2 her . 2 me , she is just 2 wonderful . She was just lyke an angel from e heaven . hahahahahahahahahahhahahaha!

Song: Fall for you

The best tink bout 2nite tat we would fighting. Could it be tat we had met this way before? I noe u dun tink tat i am trying ......... becoz 2nite will be e nite tat i would fall for you over again , dun make me change my mind. I would live 2 see another day. I swear it true becoz a girl lyke u impossible 2 find , impossible 2 find...............

8th August 2008

2008-08-08T06:15:00.000-07:00

It national day 2morow. happy bday 2 sin. But it also was a special day 4 me coz i ask her tat a que .......... but she rejected me . NVM coz i wait until 1 day till ..... accepting . .. Said tat start naturally then k lor . Anyway, ...... so shiok , bout a week ago . Nvm coz love so special and strange but yet amazing ... HAhahahahahahah!

17th July 2008

2008-07-16T20:26:00.000-07:00

Few days ago , i ask .... about a que then ....... tat day was e best day of life. On tat day, i finally had tat ..... wawawa! best . tink was on monday ... simply best . .... was wawawa!

14th July 2008

2008-07-15T05:29:00.000-07:00

....mah!!!!.Mrs peh always very stubbon 1 sia . Go Toilet also cannot . Xia lan! 2day was dun noe wat malay festival. Then play e chapteh n five stones , malay chess . Quite a meaningful Day except some girls try 2 ask bout wat happened............... SHE

11th July 2008

2008-07-11T06:40:00.001-07:00

2day was Xinyun birthday n Jeanne n I had a long time planning 2 hav a birthday cake 4 her. NOw , it is all Over.....2day i also some tests lyke chinese test and Lit test. i still got NPCC loh till 7 pm ..really shag!!!!! somemore , still hav homework sia . Sian ! i dun wan do leh ...

10th July 2008

2008-07-11T06:36:00.000-07:00

i had quite a no of tests like history n science. quite tiring day ......n it is Xinyun birthday 2morow

9th July 2008

2008-07-09T02:32:00.000-07:00

Tis morning, rained very heavily. i was on e bus thinking bout what happened yesterday. Remember talking bout JUSTIN announcing 2 e whole class my blogspot. After i reached school , i emoooooo! Sad lah . ......... Then , at recess time , JIAHAn and me saw somebody falling down and fell into coma. Looking into eeyes of e victim, i was scared n shocked at tt moment . I heard from my friend tt he fell down and knocked his forehead on e ground. So scary.....

8th July 2008

2008-07-07T18:29:00.000-07:00

2day was e special day as i created my first BLOG. i had FNm lessons and our teacher Brought us to the lab 4 research.......so i finish early and i ask JusTIN to help me create my blog. Siao! he AN eexpert in blogging . After then, i had my history lessons and it was so boring sia lah.Anyway , a new student called watt chin wei came. e most embarrsasing i s tat JUSTin told e whole class that i just created a blog n it was i love xinyun blogspot then t was lyke so malu lah . then , i EMO e whole day lor!